Yesterday. . . 7th March 2008. . . 2.00am. . . The truth have been spoken. . .
I felt much better after I said everything out to to her. . . Being a good soul she have been trying not to hurt me so much by not being too straight forward.
Thank you.
The conversation was on MSN, out of a suddenly we talk about things has change recently. . . and obviously one of it was me she was talking about cos nowadays I like change to a different Andy that she knew before.
And there she goes trying to get things out of my fingers(MSN not mouth), or maybe she know my weak spot telling me that she really hate liars so better that her the truth. As for my character at that moment of time. . . I really don't know what to do! But in the end. . . I decided to tell her everything. . .
Feeling better after all my confession. . . the answer really doesn't matter to me anymore. . . Because after all. . . all along I knew she has been treating me as a good friend only. . . It's just an one sided game that I have been playing.
But in the end she did tell me how she felt towards all this. . . relationship to her now is a confirm "no" as she just got over one. . . and she hope both of us can just be good friends.
Reject with no hard feelings maybe this is what she wants. . . thats why she have been very careful with her words in the conversations.
Me and her is going through the up coming camps together. . . and she told me it's better not to have a barrier in between us so that the camp would only have fun without awkward feelings. . . which is what I think too. . . so let's us make the best out of the camps.
Of course I am sad for the rejection, but after all this I found true good friends . . . support me during period that I am down. . . all these have overcome the sadness. I gain good friends that care for me and what is there to be sad of now?
I promise to all my friends that I will jia you. . . "Andy Loh aka Joker Loh aka Clarence" will be back in no time. . .
Thanks a million!!
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